5th feb,2011
bangalore.
FINALLY ASLEEP was i...or was at least trying to be.
they give me food...they give me clothing...they give me lot of time for myself.
they give me survival..
they give me ONLY SURVIVAL.
m surviving.
i am not living.
.
.
but i guess i have lost the right to live.to complain.to just take my bike out at 3 in the night n almost
runover at every son of a bitch who barks looking at my ugly bike and my UGLY FACE.
.
.
RESTRICTED.
WALLS.
SURVIVAL.
TORTURE.
and ME.me a KILLER.a PRISONER.an ANIMAL IN THE CAGE.
.
.
i am sorry i have no intention of digging my past.
i have a lot of things to live for.
my thin,comforting MATTRESS for instance.
i call her gia and she is my ideal wife.
shes thin n relaxes me after a long tiring day.
their is another kinda wife other that an ideal wife.
MY WIFE.
my wife used to hate me.and love me at the same.
everything was going fine until i killed her. :)
its her death anniversary today :)
...what?why that reaction?what am i supposed to so?she cheated on me. :(
with my best friend.he was more successful than me :(
well my best friend before i killed him :)
what?again the same reaction?
i was just having A BAD DAY.
i just walk into my bedroom and there they are blinding me with excess skin show. pretty sick aint it?
.
.
MY BEDROOM .
MY WIFE.
MY BEST FRIEND.
MY BAD DAY.
.
.
the bad day was worst when i started feeling guilty.
u know guilt right?its this feeling u get when u steal money from your dad's wallet.
i landed up in prison.
behind barcode-like bars n dad-like walls.
.
.
0ut 0f my worst times came gia...my ideal wife...
she is so awesome and i am a crazy guilty lunatic who is searching for his dead wife in a freaking mattress.
thank god i am back to my senses.
i have a new friend.
.
.
say hello to inspector Singh's pist0l.
late inspect0r Singh would be m0re appropriate i feel.
what?he used t0 beat me up all night.and was not letting me make new friends.
but now we are together.
pistol is a nice friend,i call her silver..well because she is silver in color.
i just h0pe silver helps me meet my dead wife again :)
.
.
bai bai world.
it was nice meeting you.
hope to see u when i am reborn :)
[silenced gunshot]
'' SUICIDE NOTE OF A KILLER ''[s.n.o.a.k] ©nikhil bose sangle
bangalore.
FINALLY ASLEEP was i...or was at least trying to be.
they give me food...they give me clothing...they give me lot of time for myself.
they give me survival..
they give me ONLY SURVIVAL.
m surviving.
i am not living.
.
.
but i guess i have lost the right to live.to complain.to just take my bike out at 3 in the night n almost
runover at every son of a bitch who barks looking at my ugly bike and my UGLY FACE.
.
.
RESTRICTED.
WALLS.
SURVIVAL.
TORTURE.
and ME.me a KILLER.a PRISONER.an ANIMAL IN THE CAGE.
.
.
i am sorry i have no intention of digging my past.
i have a lot of things to live for.
my thin,comforting MATTRESS for instance.
i call her gia and she is my ideal wife.
shes thin n relaxes me after a long tiring day.
their is another kinda wife other that an ideal wife.
MY WIFE.
my wife used to hate me.and love me at the same.
everything was going fine until i killed her. :)
its her death anniversary today :)
...what?why that reaction?what am i supposed to so?she cheated on me. :(
with my best friend.he was more successful than me :(
well my best friend before i killed him :)
what?again the same reaction?
i was just having A BAD DAY.
i just walk into my bedroom and there they are blinding me with excess skin show. pretty sick aint it?
.
.
MY BEDROOM .
MY WIFE.
MY BEST FRIEND.
MY BAD DAY.
.
.
the bad day was worst when i started feeling guilty.
u know guilt right?its this feeling u get when u steal money from your dad's wallet.
i landed up in prison.
behind barcode-like bars n dad-like walls.
.
.
0ut 0f my worst times came gia...my ideal wife...
she is so awesome and i am a crazy guilty lunatic who is searching for his dead wife in a freaking mattress.
thank god i am back to my senses.
i have a new friend.
.
.
say hello to inspector Singh's pist0l.
late inspect0r Singh would be m0re appropriate i feel.
what?he used t0 beat me up all night.and was not letting me make new friends.
but now we are together.
pistol is a nice friend,i call her silver..well because she is silver in color.
i just h0pe silver helps me meet my dead wife again :)
.
.
bai bai world.
it was nice meeting you.
hope to see u when i am reborn :)
[silenced gunshot]
'' SUICIDE NOTE OF A KILLER ''[s.n.o.a.k] ©nikhil bose sangle
2 comments:
loved it man....n for a psychology student...u think i need 2 say anythin...i thot m goin thru a case history of manic- depressive disorder... :) lovely...good work....brief n well explained..!!!
thanks tanvi :) the only problem i think in thi sone is that its quite predictable..ill work on that point nxt time :)
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